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I am crabby this morning. It is 7 a.m. and I already had to apologize to my husband. AND... I really didn't even want to apologize. What I really wanted to say was,"Babe, I am sorry that I am pregnant and huge and that it is going to be 90 degrees today and... that my feet are the size of watermelons and I have only been up for a hour."
Whoa... who wouldn't want to wake up to me this morning? He is so sweet and he has looked at me twice and said, "go do your devotions." Now he is outside hoeing our garden which is sweet balm to my soul (and probably to his soul too as he thinks, "get me away from this crazy lady")
I can't do anything about the heat today.
I can't change that I am 37 weeks pregnant and every task seems like double the work.
I can't change that I have to sit down every 15 minutes to get the swelling down in my feet.
I can't change that I want to drink a whole bottle of TUMS and my trachea is constantly on fire.
I can't change that I feel like I am on the Adkins Diet and I want to be on the ice cream and Swedish Fish diet.
BUT...
I can be a joy to be around. I can exude the love of Christ to my family. I can help others smile and feel the love of Christ when they are with me today. I can be fun and excited about this day.
When I look at my two options I know that plan B is going to work out much better for me.
My "to-do" list might be very short and we might eat cereal more times then I want to. I might not get all the laundry or dishes done, but I might snuggle a little more. Those cracker crumbs might stay on the floor one more day and the kids might have dirty nails for church tomorrow. I might cringe every time some one wants a drink of water and needs to go potty and heave myself off my chair.
However, if I can choose joy all day today and SMILE as I focus on what the Lord has given me... I will have succeed.
Bob - yes. That is about all I've got right now! Basically, one of the biggest things keeping me positive right now, is that it seems like most people expect me to fail or to be fully incapable of doing much more than breathing. My ankles no longer bend, my sweat glands have never been this active, I keep running into things with my belly and I still have 5 weeks of this! But I won't complain about it because then everyone will look at me as if to say: "haha, told you so!" I am determined to be a joyful and capable pregnant woman, yet sometimes it's really good to admit the difficulties involved! Love you and praying for you! Can't wait to see pictures of your newest!
ReplyDeleteDon't let those ankles get the best of you Kate! I will post some pics as soon as this little one decides to show. Hopefully it will be sooner rather than later.
DeleteOnce again you amaze me! I now feel a little ashamed for feeling pretty much that same way today (and I'm only 27 wks!) Thanks for the reminder that it's not all about me...but about taking what the Lord has given me, being wonderfully grateful and happy for that and going on each & every day loving my kids and (super patient) husband.
ReplyDeleteDeb, I am so glad to encourage you. I have to give myself pep talks almost hourly these days. Hang in there and keep reminding yourself of all the great things God has given you!
DeleteGREAT perspective Krista, I NEEDED this right now too! I wish it were easier to keep a good attitude sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI don't feel like anything is easy anymore Courtney. It is all hard, but so worth it!
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